The pound note unrips. Earth takes a skyscaper back in Bangkok; death's fast. The oligarch folds our government into a table of contents Hotel room. London. I go deaf in my right ear all of a sudden. The eye of closure blinks; something snaps; the borders of chapters fuzzing Thames sun reflection blinding, two silhouettes void against glare. I'm late. Can't really see all of Big Ben cuz the window is too short. Still late. He gave her balloons and lit his cigarette. Thanks, love. Happy birthday. Denmark St. stop 4 N19/N38 Forward, left—>hotel The memories arrive with urgency. The straight spine lets them go. Wind. Night. Window: tulips. Ears: the electric bus hissing; Adrianne Lenker. Slow morning. My hand leaves behind afterimages. I'm half-real today. I scrounge the substance from underneath my thumbnail like shrimp shell flesh. Yum. Lady of Shaloft saw the world through the glass of a handheld mirror All morn spent thinking of David Foster Wallace How he killed himself She appeared in the dream, standing there, gazing. The stars; horizon slammed shut. No Mom I said I do not want to jump on their trampoline I'm tired Rain drums the window. With the draft from night, a dog's screams seep in, end. Why? In the museum I saw nothing but bought A map for £2 Took a picture of Francis Bacon's three studies on an iPhone 12 The brown world: Bacon's dog living half in this one, half in another. I move through all of Turner's scenes as if I'm dying. They flash like memories. For Turner, Napo- -leon existed just a bit left of center Turner reduced whole cities to coughs of color, like rain on a lens In the unreal room The borders of all us collapse. We become all else. Captain left faint and reeling on a dying horse from Jallalabad The hanging red lamps glow. Gold railings. Velvet seats. This place to hear sound. In Ronnie Scott's jazz club a microcosm of God's heartbeat caged Turns out the guy who sounded like Common actu- -ally was Common The tension eases and the dogs put their noses to the ground and sniff I watch the dream slip past the brink of perception: Going, going, gone.
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I felt like I was experiencing these memories along with you. Lovely work.
Loved these, just brilliant.